I think me as a kid would have thought like, "What took you so long to find out who you were?" And like "Why did you deny yourself so long?" kinda thing. Because like I was a little boy when I was a kid, you know? I like... and I was comfortable like that, like I was, I was, all my friends were boys, and I, and like, I was never really girly, and like, I was always really uncomfortable... doing... girl type stuff. Like when ever my sister and I played Barbies I always Ken.

Well for this one, just I... I think it's totally me. When I was a kid, I was, I don't know, pretty imaginative and super creative, and always playing with imaginary friends and stuff like that. But I was still pretty tomboyish and like, pretty proud of myself I think, ha ha ha! And I think that picture shows it pretty well. Like for me what I remember as a kid, is like shorts, and like getting dirty. Like I never remember wearing shirts all that often.

This one, um, I was my grandpa's little girl. This is in his boat, and he named the boat Jenny after me, cause he wanted me to be called Jenny. But no one ever called my Jenny. Um, yeah, and... my grandpa was kind of my hero I guess, much like my dad is. And yeah, he always had these great hats! I always wonder where his hat collection went.

My mom still has the ponytail. She cried when I cut my hair. Yeah, she cried. Yeah, I practically cried too because it felt so good! It like... the ponytail weighs like two pounds! Yeah, it was crazy. It was always getting tangled and dirty... I wore a ball cap all my childhood practically. And like, I had the ball cap on and my hair would go here and here, and my ears would stick out the side. I didn't grow into my ears until a long time later, ha ha ha. I still haven't really, but... yeah.

This one is, um, just recently after I came out. This picture like officially... I started telling people. Like I first came out in grade six, and then I went back in the closet for a long time. And um, then when I finally accepted the fact that I was queer, and I was very proud of it and, ha ha ha, yeah, so I came out and... like I was a lot happier. Cause I guess this is, this is probably around grade six, and I was pretty depressed then, ha ha ha, I think cause all my friends were teasing me. Yeah, I had my first crush on a girl in grade three. I thought I was a little boy... or I just didn't realize that it wasn't ok for girls to have crushes on girls. I don't know if I would have identified it as a crush or anything like that, but ah, I was definitely very attracted to this person and wanted to spend a lot of time with them, to her dismay, ha ha ha. I still have a crush on her now. She's so hot!

First year university was great. I was so excited. I lived in all girls wing, and my roommate hadn't showed up yet and I was like, praying for this really cute dyke. And she was this really cute... very... Christian... girl. Ha ha ha. But we got along fine. Like, yeah I was hanging up my pride flag in my room and she's like putting up her cross. Ha ha ha. Yeah, and I was pretty much the only dyke in the tower.

Oh, my mom totally totally forced me to wear a dress! Ha ha ha, yeah, yeah. I was her first girl. And she was very excited after having two boys, so pink was my staple for a good many years of my life. Yeah, dresses and stuff. My mom tried really hard to make me a girl. But I think she knew, like early on that I wasn't... really. And like my dad and I always went fishing and I always helped him chop wood and stuff like that and, yeah. So like my mom was trying really hard to make me a girl, and my dad was treating me just like a boy. Ha ha ha.

Well, I can still see like, glimpses of me... well, they're me, but you know? Like, I can see where I'm covering things up. Like this one I guess is a little more closer to not hiding, where as this one i'm hiding a lot here. I can, you can see it in the face too... when i'm not quite sure, you know? Yeah... right. Where I know that I'm hiding, but don't really know what from, er... don't know why kind of thing. Yeah, haven't really come into my own yet. I think that part of my life did something good for me though. Like, like the whole, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, kind of thing. And I know what I felt like then, and I know what I feel like now, and what I know now is so much better - ha ha ha - than feeling uncomfortable. Yeah, but who knows. Like, in the future I might look back on me now and go like, "What the heck?" Ha ha ha.

This is after I came out as trans, so this is my, my little boy picture. And yeah, still searching for a gendered identity, kind of... yeah. I was beginning to embrace it, like I was being called Jaye there, and, um, yeah... I'm pretty happy. It's such a great festival, you should totally go to it! Hillside, Hillside festival, its like music and arts and workshops and... its just so much fun. Yeah, you get to tie dye your underwear. Lots of topless-ness it's great. And skinny-dipping, which I've never done, but I really should try though.